I feel like I’m allowing you to slip away, like I’m not putting in everything to keep us together, and it’s all my fault. I know you’re disappointed because I didn’t do everything I promised when I saw you, I’m not even doing everything I possibly can to even talk to you, I have this kind heart just bundled with millions of things I could say and do to make you smile, and I’m so disappointed in myself to not have done them yet. Just give me that opportunity, don’t give up on us, I promise you won’t regret letting me into your life.

All the songs are happy songs, which hurts even more, because when you chose them you were happy, you were happy to be with me, and you wanted to show me. Now the songs are all I have left of the girl that used to be so crazy about me. I miss her so much, I’ll never get her back. She just doesn’t exist.

I wish you would love to stay, because a part of me knows I could make you happy. But that part of me is foolish, it believes what it wants and it makes me lie to myself, I try enact a world where everything is perfect, because only in that world would our feelings be mutual. I try to make the world as if I could create happiness, I could control the world. Now I realize we’re all in a different kind of world not all the same. In yours, life is not as beautiful, and you’re just waiting and hoping one day you’ll wake up and realize that life is amazing, and it is something you would want to live. Well, at least that is my hope for you. I need to make you happy, before caring about how much pain I have to go through to make you realize it. That’s why I’m willing to let you go. I’m okay, I’ll always be okay with caring and protecting you when times become rough. Maybe love wasn’t meant for us, or at least not for you to me. But thanks for the times when love was all we could think about. Let’s leave on a positive note sweetheart, you’ve made me happy for the times we did have. I do hope that you live a good life. I hope every guy after me is better, I never want you to look back at us with regret, I want you to fall in love with someone that can make you smile even more then I did. I want him to take a million photos of you, so I can remember that at one point in time, that was my job, and it made me so happy. One day I’ll read this again, and think damn, I really used to care about this girl. By then I hope I would have moved on. Have a good life my love, I’ll miss you forever.

I hope you know I did everything I could. I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy. Just always try to be happy, always smile, if he makes you happy, let him. Don’t let me hold you back. I’ll always smile for you love.

Keep me safe, I don’t need you to beat anybody up, keep me safe from you. Don’t break my heart, I’m trusting you. You’re the one to put a smile on my face, to make me happier then ever. Who knew you’re the same person that can take it all away, don’t do that to me. Please. 

I’m not looking for perfection. I mean, it would be great for you to be just like me, and do what I love to do. But honestly, you don’t have to be that girl. I want a girl that regardless of who you are, you can still end up making me laugh, making me smile, and making my time with you enjoyable. Even if our interests our different, and everything about us doesn’t even make sense, you should still love me like none other. Effort, is always more important then perfection.

I wanna play with you, no not like that, just have fun. I want to teach you games, run around with you, every part of our relationship shouldn’t be kissing and touching. I want a girlfriend that I could treat like my best friend, let’s just act like kids again, play on swings, run in the rain, roll down hills, if you can’t find someone that you would be happy with regardless of what you are doing, then your relationship obviously doesn’t expand much more then from the bedroom. There’s so much more to relationships then what you would expect, let’s have fun.

Please be religious, I am a straight-up dedicated Catholic, I don’t need you to be Catholic, but please have an interest or faith in God, come to church and pray with me, thank God that we have each other. At the end of the day God is the reason we’re together, I don’t know if our relationship will last until matrimony, but give a second to thanks God that he allowed our paths to cross, that he’s given us time to be together. Before we can love anyone, God is always first. I want a girlfriend that believes that with me.

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Please be faithful, is that too hard to ask for? Being cheated on is the worst feeling ever. You realize that you’re not good enough to make your loved one happy, that they have to go out and find someone else for their benefits. If you wanted someone else you could have just broken up with me, at least that leaves me with closure, if I find out, I’ll break up with you. You just broke the trust we had, you just made me unsteady knowing you’re going somewhere, I could never trust a cheater, this applies for guys too, don’t cheat on your girlfriends. If you’re unhappy, just leave. In my eyes if you can’t trust someone, you shouldn’t be with them. I’ll never look at you the same, because at that moment, you won’t be the girl I fell for, but you’ll be the girl that tore my heart apart. A heart I never should have given you.

Don’t make me jealous, as little as guys would like to admit, we do get jealous. Don’t get me wrong, you can have guy friends and what not. But don’t do anything I would have to think twice about, don’t call other guys cute names, don’t ditch me to hangout with another guy. It makes me feel bad, you’re entitled to your space but I’m entitled to my own feelings about what you do when I’m not around. You’re mine, don’t forget that.

Be a lady, have respect for yourself. A confident girl is a sexy one. Don’t wear shirts that show half your body and shorts that make your butt hang out. It’s attractive, I’ll admit. But it makes you looks trashy, no guy wants a girl that everyone thinks is sexy, but rather beautiful. Dress to impress. Imagine it the other way around, would you like me to walk around and take my shirt off in public? If you’re going to be my girlfriend, you’re mine, I don’t want anybody else seeing what you have to offer. I don’t mind if were alone though ;D hahaha.